Monday, November 16, 2015

Eating In

Today marks day 19 of a 3 week period of eating out every single day.
During this period we might have eaten two meals at home. This doesn't
count breakfast, but I don't know a missionary who counts breakfast as
a meal. Regardless today we're fasting and I'm feeling like I could
float along on cloud nine and fast for a solid four days as to allow
my body to cleanse itself.
Don't think that this is normal, this is absurd. Every day has had
it's own, unique, level of absurdity, but these past weeks have had
insane insane days all one after another. I'm about to blow a casket.
Next time you bug your mom to give up on lasagna swap it for a night
out, the next time you grapple within your soul between leftovers and
McDonald's, later when you reach for the phone before you reach for
the fridge door, I want you to think about this list I've compiled
about all the things I miss about home cooked meals. Yes I realize the
majority of my emails are lists but this is just how I think.
~Choice and Accountability
When you're left to your own devices in your lonely kitchen, you have
the world at your feet! You can eat absolutely anything you want. You
can eat AS MUCH or as little as you want. At the end of the day, the
consequences of what you ate are all yours and yours only. Choice and
accountability are BLESSINGS. When I'm looking at a plate handed to me
by the sweetest Brazilian, no matter how much I love this person, I
just can't help to think about the million and two things I'd rather
eat than what's in front of me. Actually, this was my mindset the
first week and a half. At the tail end of this horror film had me
looking at my plate thinking about how much I'd rather be not eating
than eating at that moment. And where are my consequences? (Still not
on the scale thank goodness) but in the twang of heart burn so
deliciously bestowed upon me. HOW IS THIS MY FAULT. I am reaping the
consequences of someone else's choices just to not offend them.
Imagine: you invite a sister missionary over for the third time that
week to eat with you and she tells you she values her heart health
more than the feast you've prepared and asks for an apple instead.
~Self Confidence
I a twenty-year-old representative of Jesus Christ. But for the past
three weeks I haven't cooked a single meal. My hands aren't used to
turning on the stove, they've accustomed a little too well to scooping
a portion of someone else's hard work into my own plate. I feel like
I'm back home, in the ages before I was trusted with microwaves and
I'm eating out of my mom's hand again. This is not a good feeling. I
have been absolutely spoiled my whole time in Oizumi. Yes, mothers
still whip out cakes at the end of an already exhausting meal and
expect me to squeal. My confidence in my sustainability is non
~Human Interaction
My favorite favorite favorite part about eating in is sitting and
talking to my family. We say what we really want, honestly describe
our day, and laugh a ton. I remember as a first, second, third
transfer missionary and giggling in excitement as we rode our bikes
home for a decent meal home just because there was so much I wanted to
talk about, to ask about, to laugh about. This is week three without a
decent conversation with my own companion. We've never ever in my time
here had dinner at home. We either eat with someone or skip it. 
It's true: I've mostly eaten meals on my knees. Nobody every gets used
to this. No American anyway. Oh how I long for the days when I have
the choice between a sturdy dinning room chair and a sofa. How much
time as it been since I've sat on a sofa?!
~Teeth Brushing
How can a mint compensate for mouth wash, floss, and American tooth
paste? It doesn't.
I love you ALL I'll see you soon,
Sister Goldsberry

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